Tuesday, 22 August 2017

I'm back!



So, it's been almost exactly two years since I last posted here.

I have no idea how it's been that long or where the last two years have gone but oh boy, things have changed and so much has happened and I am ready to come back.

You know people always say that they go through things and at the end they feel like a completely different person? 
I was the kind of person who always looked at that and thought 'Oh come on, how can you feel like a whole different person? How?!' but this period of my life has changed me and I'm now one of the people who says that I'm a completely different person and I totally get it.

In the last 12 months alone, I've been through more than I can even begin to look back on.

I moved house.
Then I moved again.
Then I moved home to Cornwall.
And then I moved back to London.
And then I  moved again.

I left my job and then rejoined it 6 months later because I missed it.

I came out of a 6 year relationship and lost family members within months of each other and I broke and put myself back together again; something which I didn't know I could do.

I faced loss;real loss, head on for the first time in my 23 years of life and it hurt like hell and I survived it.

I battled with depression and anxiety and while I'm winning right now, I know that this is a fight I may well be in for the rest of my life. 

It's been hard. 

I've hurt more than I knew it was possible to.
But through all of it I realised that I'm strong.
 I've always admired the women in my family for being strong and independent and always thought that I couldn't live up to how amazing they are but I can and I do and I am proud.

I've found myself, as cliche as that sounds. 

And I'm back. Different. But back.

Speak to you all soon,

Kirsten
xx